Soul vortex, again
What had happenned lately made me think a lot. Mostly the things that’ve been told to me.
I guess that what I’m talking about is soon to happen. Well, let me not go too far into the future, let’s just say, that those who know what I mean will understand anyway.
Did what I have heard make me somehow rejoice? Or did I feel somehow sorry? I can’t answer the question, I guess both at once. Do I feel any guilt? I would want to answer “Fuck no!”, but that wouldn’t be truth. I do feel somewhat guilty.The question I ask myself – “If I wasn’t there, If my non willed interference wasn’t there, would the things take the same course?”. If yes, they would happen so, then there is no point of me feeling guilty, is there? I actually guess that they would, and this makes me feel somewhat better. Now I guess, I would let just things go and watch. Still so much can happen. And also I will do my best to somehow chill out.
“46. Dost thou fail? Art thou sorry? Is fear in thine heart?
47. Where I am these are not.” AL: II
I think I’ll obey.
Anyway I still feel so fucking schizophrenic. Things are simply too fucked up. I will explain and write more on it later, once they things resolve.
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